I played Jason with the White pieces. I blundered making a silly move. I felt that 12.Ne4 was positionally bad after his 12…Qf5 best move, but then I got a sense of optimism from thinking I had already played Bd3 so that after 12…Qf5 I could play 13.Qg5, trading queens a pawn up.
Naturally as he moved his queen to that square, I could see that I had not only messed up with not playing Bd3 first, but I could see that my knight was pinned to the king, something I had never considered. But at this point I knew my position was lost.
Amazingly, he failed to win the piece and let me back into the game. After he played 29..Re7, I knew I was lost but played 30.c6 after a few minutes because it was lost no matter what, so play to watch him get it right. I should have played it faster though to put more pressure on his move.
Only good thing was that we both had over half an hour left. I’m still adjusting to G/90 though because that blunder was not adequately thought/planned out.
I was going to play 12.Bd3 and 13.Re1. Crafty says his 12..Nb4 is equalizing and that 12.Ne5 is the move.
Anyway, we set this position up for post-mortem. Unbelievably, he plays 12…b5 right away. I forked his rook and queen a few moves later and let him take that back, then I won the ending in a blitz game about 8 minutes total for both sides.
So basically, I never gave him a chance to fail and allow my experience to kick in. I blundered because it’s just no good to be overly clever at G/90 and have it turn out to be a blunder, but I have no problem blitzing him. My problem is that I act like I am playing against Fritz, but I am not, I am playing against non-Experts that make bunches of positional mistakes and mistake based on inexperience if I simply play half-@ssed chess and allow them to make those mistakes. Really disappointing use of time, playing in these G/90 games. Only good thing is my rating is so low already for what it should be based on my knowledge and experience.
Oh man, I missed the tactical shot, same idea, that would have cut out his reply 12.Nd5! instead of 12.Ne4??, and I get the same idea in with no problems. Wow, never looked at it, might of in 40/2, it’s a very optimized move for G/90, but I have to find those things even when playing quickly.
For me, most of the time goes into the positional evaluation, not the calculation of variations – sizing up possibilities, lots of side variations. I should have been able to calculate the main variation though, since I had already made the evaluation. If I spent time looking at positions, just training in calculating variations, no doubt that would help me more than anything when it comes to OTB play, those habits would be worth hundreds of ratings points. As of now, I am evaluating, but then just playing a move. My moves are not following my calculations the way they should, and yet I can calculate well, since once I messed up, I actually calculated for a while, then blitzed out like 5 moves, knowing I had dropped a piece, and I think that blitzing actually hurt my opponent’s calculation, it sort of overpowered him a bit, I think.