I played my buddy Alex, and I knew that I was winning and getting a great game right off the bat, but didn’t save enough time for defense, and erred badly. At the end, I wanted to force a draw, but tried one time too many to tempt him into continuing the game and missed that I was losing. Actually, I sensed it after I made my move, that I should have forced the draw, but even then missed that I could have defended and won. I saw it once I saw my engine’s score, like “Oh yeah, I have this ..Bc1 defense”. Seemed so obvious on this 2-D board, but I didn’t see it in time-pressure.
Actually, I went to this game not caring about complications or win or lose, the whole game long. My buddy wanted to win it badly, but I never got excited about winning, understood I could still lose the winning position, and that is what happened.
I didn’t study any chess at all today, simply took this as a fun break from other things. I really haven’t studied chess in a while, played some games online yesterday, the rust is slowly coming off but it has taken longer than I thought it would. I never got nervous during this game though, wasn’t at all like “OMG, I have to win this game!” or anything like that.
My buddy was like “I needed these rating points after my horrible tournament this weekend”. But like I told him afterward, “Rating points don’t pay the bills.” Now I guess if he got enough of them it would, but that is at least Master level, and this is still a G/90 game at the end of the day.
BTW, 28.Kb2 should have been an obvious defensive move. 28..Bxd4+, 29.Nc3 seals the game. It’s difficult to rush defense to the tune of the clock. I could have saved a lot of time earlier because I knew that my moves were automatic, like g4, it’s simply a very positional move blocking out his knight. I shouldn’t waste half an hour verifying moves that I wanted to play all along. I could have used that extra time for defense later in the game. It’s the problem with OTB G/90, I find that 5 minutes is often worth a rook when down on the clock, and it’s no longer “chess”, but who can think fast.
The engine confirms that my attack was running out of steam when I played Qxh5 (after RxNh5), nevermind that he misplayed it with ..f5. But there is a winning shot. RxNh5..gxh5, Nd5 which blocks out his queen, allowing Qf5 battery attacking Nd7 and more importantly h7, but I also needed to play h6..Bg7 first, before playing g5 (not sure why that part of it matters).