There’s not much to say about this game, other than first I started running out of time, and then I ran out of energy. I worked an hour OT, instead of taking a break before I got there and having some coffee and such like I normally do. I was mentally burnt out since Tuesday, my day off, and was in a fog for most of the week. Did I really play this game? I missed mate in three and many easy wins, but didn’t look at the game much, seems like it happened in a dream perhaps.
Before the game I learned that I would be starting a new position at my work (right before I left work to play chess), after training for the next two weeks. I won’t know my next schedule until then. I had mixed feelings about playing this game, not wanting to become too attached during the game so that I wouldn’t feel like I would be missing chess, since it is possible that I won’t be able to play anymore weekday games depending on my future schedule.
I spent a really long time before deciding to sac the d-pawn early in the game, but then quickly realized I had a winning position and was much better than my opponent, but then I was done on the clock and done with mental energy, and wasn’t so concerned with the result by that point. It was too much of week, and this game was sort of like a blip, a bump in the road somewhere. In any normal state I am winning this game easily, spotting the mate in 3, etc.