I saw things during this game, but lacked the confidence at critical times to play those moves, mainly due to the psychological factor behind the ratings differential. So that’s all I am going to say about this game because Paul found this blog, and I don’t want him reading about my game with him that we just played.
What particularly stung is a comment he made post-mortem to me of “That’s why you are a 1600 player”, which he didn’t mean in a negative way, but this is what has become of my once 1876 rating because all I play now are G/90 tournaments because my company has not approved time off for a weekend tournament since I’ve been there in over a year.
By Thursday I was burned out, two hours of sleep and my brain just didn’t want to function during my game with Alex. He created a nice attack, in any event, but I had made a losing blunder if he had seen it even earlier in the game.
I was so disgusted by my game with Alex that I didn’t even save the game, only the analysis line from Fruit for how I should have played. Here is how it should have gone according to Fruit:
On move 20, I played 20…c5, partly because my brain and energy level just couldn’t cope with the new tactical situation on the board – it was my way of saying “I’m beginning to get a headache looking at all of his possible attacks, I have 15 minutes on my clock to his hour, and I just want his attack to ‘go away’ already.” I was proud of Alex, but not of myself. Black is still in the opening through move 22, and I needed to continue to confidently develop my pieces, which I had been doing until I saw his attack and threw in the towel.
After 20…c5??, see if you can find the mate. BTW, in that analysis continuation given Black’s final move would be 25…Qg5, which is dead-even if White plays into that line.