Fun fact, I’ve never drawn Dean before with the Black pieces, it’s been all wins. We have at least 5 draws, with no wins for him, but all of the draws came where I had the White pieces, until now.
19…Bd8? I’ll go ahead and give this move a question mark because I knew I was trading my “good” bishop for his “bad” one, and I could see how kluge-like his kingside attack on me was, and how it probably would have been unnatural for him to continue that attack, but being I had an unhealthy clock situation to his very healthy clock situation, decided to steer it toward a draw, and then to look for a final chance there. I saw 19…h6, 20.Bf4, which the engines like, but didn’t want to keep that complexity with my clock (with a second time-control, btw, I would keep the complexity). I could possibly play …Bc7 (or somewhere) and …Rb8 to play on the queenside.
At the end, I blunder, and it’s almost as if I saw that I was blundering before I even played it, but all of the other lines are drawing, and it’s hard to say if the final position really is a win for White or not. In any case, Dean offered the draw, and of course I accepted.